[ . . . . it's not as though she's wrong. for all that soo-won did love king il and princess yona, they were not the leadership that the country needed. those in hiryuu castle never knew what was happening outside the bounds of their walls.
even still.]
.... I liked that person, too. You were happy, weren't you? So is that time truly a waste?
[which is perhaps dangerous to admit, when they both don't know what is missing between them but.]
And you are admirable as you are now, as well.
[he sips his tea]
While how much you know has changed.... I do not believe it to be in your character to ignore the suffering that you witness. I don't think you'll become complacent, or unmoving, if you take time to rest.
You're never been that person.
[which is.
what sets her apart from her father, as far as soo-won's concerned.]
[how different could things have been if she and her father had both been more aware, she wonders?
(and how much of it had her father been aware of, and simply turned a blind eye to, believing that it would get better without his intervention? she doesn't want to think it of him, but it's hard to understand how there are so many things they hadn't known about.)]
I could have been happy while helping others, though. It didn't have to be either or, but it was.
[maybe she could have been even happier. her life now isn't easy, but it's fulfilling. how much more of a difference could she have made with this kind of resolve and the resources she'd taken for granted...?]
...thank you. For saying that.
[she thinks it's true. if someone had been suffering in front of her, even back then, she can't imagine closing her eyes and not acknowledging it.
but she could have done more, back then. she wants to do more, now.]
I want to be someone that you and Hak can be proud of... I want to be someone that Father could have been proud of, too.
[the fact of the matter is that soo-won is pretty sure that as long as yona has the four dragons in her possession, that's good enough for her dad. he doesn't say this, because it's not like he goes out of his way to upset people?
as for the rest:]
I am proud of you. [he seems a little surprised that she feels like he's not] Had I forgotten to say as much?
[admittedly he feels like there's a lot that he's forgetting that's making it complicated but,,]
As long as you're safe, I'm sure Hak is proud of you, too. But you know how bad he can be about saying it. He's rather indirect that way.
And I'm sure that your Father.... looks after only your greatest happiness - so as long as you keep reaching for it, it should be enough for him. [happiness and the dragons. he still doesn't say it.
he'll reach out to rest his hand over the back of hers, a gentle touch]
You needn't be so hard on yourself, Yona. Let your kindness move your feet forward, rather than your guilt.
why is it, that every time she recalls encountering soo-won in kouka, it doesn't feel like a happy memory? if he was proud of her, shouldn't it have been? what is it that they can't remember?
what's wrong?
she keeps one hand where it is, so that soo-won's hand can rest over it, but sets her cup down so she can rub at her head with the other.]
I'll keep working hard. And I'll be more cheerful tomorrow, I promise.
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even still.]
.... I liked that person, too. You were happy, weren't you? So is that time truly a waste?
[which is perhaps dangerous to admit, when they both don't know what is missing between them but.]
And you are admirable as you are now, as well.
[he sips his tea]
While how much you know has changed.... I do not believe it to be in your character to ignore the suffering that you witness. I don't think you'll become complacent, or unmoving, if you take time to rest.
You're never been that person.
[which is.
what sets her apart from her father, as far as soo-won's concerned.]
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(and how much of it had her father been aware of, and simply turned a blind eye to, believing that it would get better without his intervention? she doesn't want to think it of him, but it's hard to understand how there are so many things they hadn't known about.)]
I could have been happy while helping others, though. It didn't have to be either or, but it was.
[maybe she could have been even happier. her life now isn't easy, but it's fulfilling. how much more of a difference could she have made with this kind of resolve and the resources she'd taken for granted...?]
...thank you. For saying that.
[she thinks it's true. if someone had been suffering in front of her, even back then, she can't imagine closing her eyes and not acknowledging it.
but she could have done more, back then. she wants to do more, now.]
I want to be someone that you and Hak can be proud of... I want to be someone that Father could have been proud of, too.
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as for the rest:]
I am proud of you. [he seems a little surprised that she feels like he's not] Had I forgotten to say as much?
[admittedly he feels like there's a lot that he's forgetting that's making it complicated but,,]
As long as you're safe, I'm sure Hak is proud of you, too. But you know how bad he can be about saying it. He's rather indirect that way.
And I'm sure that your Father.... looks after only your greatest happiness - so as long as you keep reaching for it, it should be enough for him. [happiness and the dragons. he still doesn't say it.
he'll reach out to rest his hand over the back of hers, a gentle touch]
You needn't be so hard on yourself, Yona. Let your kindness move your feet forward, rather than your guilt.
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[her memories just... don't make sense.
why is it, that every time she recalls encountering soo-won in kouka, it doesn't feel like a happy memory? if he was proud of her, shouldn't it have been? what is it that they can't remember?
what's wrong?
she keeps one hand where it is, so that soo-won's hand can rest over it, but sets her cup down so she can rub at her head with the other.]
I'll keep working hard. And I'll be more cheerful tomorrow, I promise.