because the headaches drain his energy rather badly and he seems to still be recovering, sighing even as he lets his back rest against a tree and he makes himself a little hard to find
but yona comes back anyway, and he seems to be.... gradually better. a little out of it but
better.
he holds his hands out for the tea, even if it's a little shaky]
Thank you.
[and as they come into contact each other - yona might feel it. the sense of a retreating, faraway fear.]
soo-won is someone who's been her rock - so feeling that sort of fear from him is more than a little unsettling. she knows, of course, that he's human. humans feel fear.
but feeling his makes her afraid for him, because he's so strong. how bad must it be, for him to be afraid?]
there's nothing on his face to show the emotion. rather it quickly becomes overridden with gratitude for the tea, amusement and fondness toward yona, and the way that he is quickly aiming to reclaim his calm.
he has to be calm.
it's his duty.]
I apologize for the scare - but it's passed already. I'm taking medicine for it, so you needn't worry so much.
the annoyance seems to hit him most of all - the surprise that he's pushed yona to this level of being upset with him and then he pauses, reflects.
his expression softens - turns a bit... admonished, guilty. but also fond.]
.... maybe it's because I'm hoping to not add to your burdens. I know how deeply you care for people here, and all that you're worried over. Whether it be your own memories or other people's livelihood...
You carry it all with you.
I don't want to be something else that you carry. I've never been that person -
And I want to impose that weight least of all upon you.
...I don't want to be something else that you carry, either.
[but he keeps worrying over her anyway, whenever she gets up to some nonsense! so.]
So... it's like the other promise we made. Let's both survive this, and let's both support each other. It's not like you're just dumping all of your burdens on me if we're both carrying them, you know.
they grew up differently in that way. the beloved princess yona who received everything she could ask for and while she wasn't without her own struggles, her own losses - it was a bit different from soo-won who was tasked with planning a coup since he was nine years old.
the idea of sharing a burden is foreign to him, and she'll feel that flicker in his feelings.
she is asking him to do one of the few things he doesn't know if he's up to the task for.]
.... I can try.
[perhaps that is his compromise, and given the effect he volunteers - ]
But I normally didn't even tell Hak everything - and we grew up together. I didn't even get to tell you everything.
It's not a practice that I'm familiar with - apparently to the point that someone thought that I needed to be cursed in order to learn how to share things about myself.
[he
is seeing why it probably looked necessary to someone to modify his behavior]
[as long as he's still got breath in him, he's capable of learning, isn't he? ...that's been true for her; she's sure it will be true for him, too.
it will just take practice, the same way she'd had to practice the bow and the sword.]
Little by little. You can start small, with the things that are easier to share, and work your way up to it. As long as you're trying, that's all I can really ask.
...but I think you can do it. People are capable of learning anything, if they try hard enough.
[ . . . there's just a little bit of a laugh at that. because the thing is that she's right. as long as he's alive, there is still more for him to learn. whether it be about the world or other people, he's never shirked away.
this - is a bit different. it's a bit difficult. there is too much on his shoulders to truly share.
but.]
... well, it certainly wouldn't be a good look if I were to deny that. Very well then, Yona.
I'll try.
[to rely on her, even if it's clumsy and uncertain.
even if he'll have to be reminded from time to time.
he'll try.]
im going to fight dw bc it ate my first attempt to send this tag
it's progress, and it's really all that she can ask of him; no one is going to be perfect at something while they're still learning to do it, and soo-won has shouldered his own burdens for nearly a decade, now. it will take time to unlearn that tendency to not share.
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because the headaches drain his energy rather badly and he seems to still be recovering, sighing even as he lets his back rest against a tree and he makes himself a little hard to find
but yona comes back anyway, and he seems to be.... gradually better. a little out of it but
better.
he holds his hands out for the tea, even if it's a little shaky]
Thank you.
[and as they come into contact each other - yona might feel it. the sense of a retreating, faraway fear.]
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soo-won is someone who's been her rock - so feeling that sort of fear from him is more than a little unsettling. she knows, of course, that he's human. humans feel fear.
but feeling his makes her afraid for him, because he's so strong. how bad must it be, for him to be afraid?]
...you're welcome...
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there's nothing on his face to show the emotion. rather it quickly becomes overridden with gratitude for the tea, amusement and fondness toward yona, and the way that he is quickly aiming to reclaim his calm.
he has to be calm.
it's his duty.]
I apologize for the scare - but it's passed already. I'm taking medicine for it, so you needn't worry so much.
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[there's - a faint flare of annoyance, there, but it's mostly wrapped in deep concern.]
Telling you not to worry about me hasn't worked this entire time, so I don't know why you think it will work for you to tell me not to.
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the annoyance seems to hit him most of all - the surprise that he's pushed yona to this level of being upset with him and then he pauses, reflects.
his expression softens - turns a bit... admonished, guilty. but also fond.]
.... maybe it's because I'm hoping to not add to your burdens. I know how deeply you care for people here, and all that you're worried over. Whether it be your own memories or other people's livelihood...
You carry it all with you.
I don't want to be something else that you carry. I've never been that person -
And I want to impose that weight least of all upon you.
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[but he keeps worrying over her anyway, whenever she gets up to some nonsense! so.]
So... it's like the other promise we made. Let's both survive this, and let's both support each other. It's not like you're just dumping all of your burdens on me if we're both carrying them, you know.
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they grew up differently in that way. the beloved princess yona who received everything she could ask for and while she wasn't without her own struggles, her own losses - it was a bit different from soo-won who was tasked with planning a coup since he was nine years old.
the idea of sharing a burden is foreign to him, and she'll feel that flicker in his feelings.
she is asking him to do one of the few things he doesn't know if he's up to the task for.]
.... I can try.
[perhaps that is his compromise, and given the effect he volunteers - ]
But I normally didn't even tell Hak everything - and we grew up together. I didn't even get to tell you everything.
It's not a practice that I'm familiar with - apparently to the point that someone thought that I needed to be cursed in order to learn how to share things about myself.
[he
is seeing why it probably looked necessary to someone to modify his behavior]
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[as long as he's still got breath in him, he's capable of learning, isn't he? ...that's been true for her; she's sure it will be true for him, too.
it will just take practice, the same way she'd had to practice the bow and the sword.]
Little by little. You can start small, with the things that are easier to share, and work your way up to it. As long as you're trying, that's all I can really ask.
...but I think you can do it. People are capable of learning anything, if they try hard enough.
[even spoiled princesses like her!]
DW MY NOTIFS
this - is a bit different. it's a bit difficult. there is too much on his shoulders to truly share.
but.]
... well, it certainly wouldn't be a good look if I were to deny that. Very well then, Yona.
I'll try.
[to rely on her, even if it's clumsy and uncertain.
even if he'll have to be reminded from time to time.
he'll try.]
im going to fight dw bc it ate my first attempt to send this tag
it's progress, and it's really all that she can ask of him; no one is going to be perfect at something while they're still learning to do it, and soo-won has shouldered his own burdens for nearly a decade, now. it will take time to unlearn that tendency to not share.
if he falters at it, she'll remind him.
yona smiles.]
Thank you, Soo-won.